Reflections

Damn, how time flies !! Another year has gone by and I felt like I really haven't done anything at all. Life as a student is pretty much boring. Been through the usual stuff with assignments, exams, presentations and all. 2006 is gonna be the last year of my studies. Yep, I'm in the final year of my degree. You don't know the assortment of feelings I have been experiencing. Excitement, nervousness, anticipation and even scare. Such a scaredy cat, I am !! I ended 2005 with a minor bang, I guess. My birthday is in December so I looked forward to seeing how the year ends. My birthday wish/es has somewhat came true. It is totally materialistic. I got me a brand new PC, not a branded one though. It was one of those clone PC where you build it on your own and have peeps assembled it for you. I already have a laptop. But, it doesn’t have the requisite processing power I need to do my work with all those downloads for porn, music and movies. *wink*. I’m a multitasking kinda guy. I like to do my work while listening to music, opening multiple windows and I found out rather too late that my laptop couldn’t handle it. Guess what, it went out on me. I could not reboot the damn thing. There goes all "my porn collection", my downloaded music and movies. *Sigh*. I’ve tried re-installing the OS, the laptop shut down by itself half way through the process. Then, I couldn’t turn it on again. So, to sum it up, my laptop has two problems (i) power/batteries and (ii) hard disks. Do you guys have any ideas on how I can solve these problems before I sent it to the service center which I’m sure as hell gonna charge me an exorbitant amount I rather die than pay ?? LOL !!

On the personal front, whew...Here goes, I have been struggling to come to terms that I am attracted to cute guys. I know, I know, I do not want to be another Kitjar Sukjaidee although our predicaments are similar. I thought I can just deal with it, you know despite me, being a muslim. Ok, I am attracted to cute guys but I am also attracted to cute girls. Sometimes, I feel that I am more inclined to get to know guys through the Internet than girls. I mean, I messaged them telling I am interested to know them better to the point of telling how cute they are (not telling which personal website I’m using). Desperate, right ?!! Heck, I have even met some of the guys. Well, just one guy but it didn’t go too well. I just know it from the first time he laid his eyes on me. "He’s just not that into me". Corny, isn’t it that I’m using this line from an Oprah show I once watched. But, it described my situation dead on. I can see it from the way the guy talked. I just want a guy to be totally interested in getting to know me as I, him. Instead, I’m the one who took the extra effort to get the conversation going. For the New Year, I hope to handle this predicament of mine a lil bit better. I won’t brush off cute girls. If a cute guy comes my way, you’ll know which one I’m gonna be more interested in. Hehe !!

With that said, I just wanna wish you guys a “HAPPY NEW YEAR” albeit a day late.