Indecent Exposure

I have to put some serious thoughts into it when it dawn on me that I haven’t come up with a title for my “virgin” blog. ;-p. I call it that because I think I haven’t really figure out what is exactly my style of writing. And the fact that this is my FIRST blog where others have gone though their second or third blog. Some of the best blogs out there are usually written about what happened in their daily lives, musings, rantings and even reviews on music, movies.


“Curiosity Kills….Not !”, the title is just my way of telling there’s no harm in trying new things. That is how I discovered my penchant for cute guys. It began with me being curious about getting it on with a guy. I mean, I’ve been having these feeling since I first discovered porn. Aiskerim_potong watched his first porn at 17. I was 12 or 13, I think at the time. A bit too young, huh ?!!! I mean, me, a chubby lil’ boy stumbled upon my uncle’s stash of porn. I was intrigued. Not of the woman but the hunky man in the porn video. My first exposure only served to fuel my desire to watch more porn. I got my first computer when I was in Form Three. It was the beginning of the Internet age, if I’m not mistaken. With the Internet, I was amazed at just how many websites out there that contains porn. With a keyword, you get so many hits, porn is just clicks away. From then on, I started collecting porn be it straight, just so I have something to trade with my straight "as an arrow" friends AND to keep the illusion that I'm straight or otherwise. Obviously, my porn collection sometimes would be lost due to me not backing up my collection. It is only for the past few months that I've been backing up using an external hard drive. So, it begs the question. Does me being curiously gay as a result of being expose to such thing at such an early age or is it something that was internal ??

However, there are times when "curiosity does kills the cat", not literally, of course. There are times when I questioned whether my "there's no harm in my sexual experimentation" stance would give me problems later on. But, that is because I never really acted on my feelings. In the past, yes, there are a couple encounters which I brought upon myself. Seriously, only a COUPLE. Those encounters really put me off my experimentation for a while. Mind you, it was not, what you would call, "all the way", it was just heavy petting and oral sex (me, being the receiver). The way the event took place really made me feel, lack of a better word, used. Since, the guy was kinda into me, I just let it happened. It was certainly NOT an experience I want to remember. With that, yes, I am still a virgin. *shocks* *gasps*. Not really a virgin though, it's more of a semi-virgin (I saw this word being used in a blog but forgot whose blog. So, if the owner of that blog read this, please tell me !). A semi-virgin at 23, how pathetic is that ????!!! ;-p

Here's to my "virgin" blog and my "semi-virgin" self. May we have the courage to try things that everyone else has done before !! LOL !