Boogie to the Music

My mom bought me an iPod shuffle last year. Got a great deal for it. It was the ONLY model we could afford at the moment. That is, until I have the moolah to buy this or this or this. After all, I thought it is a great way of listening to music while you're working out. I don't have to worry about breaking or dropping it. It's built like a USB-powered pen drive, basically with no screen. Just upload your music, dump it in your bag and voila, instant music to go. I've always wondered what's the fuss all about with iPod. Sure, Apple revolutinized the way we listen to music. Great, sleek design which no other brands have managed to emulate. Other than that, I feel like the features are a bit lacking, not just talking about the iPod shuffle here. They should at least include FM tuner. Overall, I think it's a great way to listen to music in style.

I still can't get over the fact that I can listen to my favourite ANYWHERE, ANYTIME. Have you ever had instances where you listen to music aired on the radio no matter if it's in the car, bus or at the mall and you TOTALLY hate the music they're playing ??!! Now, I can just pop out my iPod and be transported to my very own aural heaven.

Ryan Phillippe playing up the "bad boy" image. HOT ! *drool*
Courtesy of JustJared

List of songs currently on heavy rotation on my iPod:

1. Georgy Porgy, Eric Benet feat. Faith Evans
2. Biology, Girls Aloud
3. Bachianas Brasileiras No. 5 Aria (Cantilena), Hayley Westenra
4. Sorry, Madonna
5. Jump, Madonna
6. Must Be Dreaming, Frou Frou
7. Get Some Sleep, Bic Runga
8. Pretty Baby, Eric Benet
9. Hi No Tori, Mika Nakashima
10. So Hot, Rahsaan Patterson
11. Walking With A Ghost, Tegan and Sara
12. When We Get By, D'Angelo
13. Smile Like You Mean It, The Killers
14. Central Park, King Kong OST
15. Beautiful, King Kong OST (two of the most achingly beautiful scores I've ever heard. Brings me to tears everytime) ;-p

Brokeback Boxers

Courtesy of Hunkvideo
I'm sure some of you guys have seen this pic somewhere before. I can't help myself, so I decided to post it here. Seriously CUTE !! Ever since the buzz created by Brokeback Mountain, everyone seems like they're jumping on the gay bandwagon. These two burly men are secure in their sexuality (they're obviously straight !) that they can joke around about it.

Eye Opener

Back after 10 days of absence. Gosh, updating this blog on a timely basis sure needs a lot work. Not to mention, the amount of creative thinking involved. I mean, finding something to write about can be hard sometimes.

Handed in my assigment last week, just in time....barely. I don't know what has become of me. I talked to a friend, A about it. A told me procrastinating is normal when it comes to a student's life. EVERYBODY is doing it. In a way, I know that. It's just I thought it would be different. When I studied for my diploma in a dingy private college in Selangor, boy, do I mean dingy. The living accomodation was intolerable. I will leave it to your imagination, what more I had to deal with communal baths and toilets. Hehe ! I know what you guys are thinking. What made it tolerable though, was the group of friends I have. I don't know what happened to them now except for a few with whom I still keep in touch. Anyway, I'm straying out of topic here. Back to my point, I always study in the last minute for my exams. My rational is your memory would be fresh from absorbing all the information and you will be able to easily remember it. And you know what, I did quite okay in my exams.


Now, studying for my degree, that mode of study just doesn't cut it anymore. I have to deal with assignments, instead of the normal exams. More than half of the subjects in my syllabus are assignment-based. Not just report assignment, I have programming assignments as well. If you guys don't know it by now, I'm studying for a degree in Information Technology. I guess, what I want to say is, I realise, perhaps way too late, doing a degree involved a LOT of work. Duh !! I think I have to put it in writing so that I know I REALLY need to do something to get it together. I also thought the change of environment will do me good. I changed to another private college to do my degree. My perception of my current college is way off than what I originally expected. Physically, the place rocks compared to my old college. A big number of foreign students to mingle around with. Good facilities. Pretty chicks and cute guys, basically the place is polluted with beautiful people. Seriously, I'm hyperventilating everytime I steps into the vincinity of my college. HOT guys are everyway. From the looks of it, I thought the culture will be different. Sadly, it's not. They're still procrastinate and they are so laidback in their studies. The thing is, I want them to influence me to be better. Now, I'm influenced by them. I know it's naive. I just can't help it. It's the way I am.

There's still one semester left. I hope it's not too late to make the necessary changes. Till then, I'm praying AND working for the best.

Time Waits For No One

Spent the day by lounging around the house. Surfing the net, watch the DVDs I bought last week, read the Sunday's paper and ermm...doin' not much of anything really. Not to say I've never done this sort of thing before. In fact, I do this ALL THE TIME. Even though, I do have pressing matters to attend to, like my assignments. One is due next week, Friday and another one on the 20th of February.

Dr. Paul : "Everyone, please say hello to our new friend."
Me: "Errm, hi everyone ! My name is Ahmad and I'm a procrastinator."
Everyone: "Hi, Ahmad !!!"

LOL ! Yes, guys. I am a procrastinator. As much as I don't want to admit it, I have this habit of ALWAYS do things in the last minute. No matter how hard I try to psyche myself, reminding myself, to finish whatever it is that I should do, I ended up doing it just in the nick of time. Imagine, you have to do a 3000 words report. Factor in, the extensive research you have to do, lists of book you have to read and you only possess an average command of the English language. Now, picture yourself starting to do the report the night before the day you have to hand it in. That, how fu**ed up I am. So far, this particular habit applies only to my studies. Somehow, I feel like I am enjoying the pressure, pushing myself to see how far I can go. Testing me to the limits of my capabilities. That is, until there come a time when I won't be able to finish the work. *shudder*

I hate to think if this habit will rear its ugly head when I starts working in the future. When you start working, it's a different ball game altogether. You have to answer to your superior.

In the mean time, I think I'll go and watch my DVDs again. ;-p

Changed

*Notice of change*

Previously, I was using camelot82@yahoo.com as my e-mail addie. Sometimes, I posted comments using another addie. But, since I could not log on into that account, I'll be using another e-mail account. It's better to synchronize all my blog related stuff to one e-mail addie, right ?!! I've tried to log on quite a number of times but still it said "Invalid ID or password". That can't be because I'm sure I've typed the right ID and password. I'm totally paranoid now. Did somebody hacked into my account and changed my password ?? In this day and age, everything is possible. Even though, I'm an IT student, I can be very clueless about technology at times.

The new e-mail addie is displayed on my profile. Please take note !

Indecent Exposure

I have to put some serious thoughts into it when it dawn on me that I haven’t come up with a title for my “virgin” blog. ;-p. I call it that because I think I haven’t really figure out what is exactly my style of writing. And the fact that this is my FIRST blog where others have gone though their second or third blog. Some of the best blogs out there are usually written about what happened in their daily lives, musings, rantings and even reviews on music, movies.


“Curiosity Kills….Not !”, the title is just my way of telling there’s no harm in trying new things. That is how I discovered my penchant for cute guys. It began with me being curious about getting it on with a guy. I mean, I’ve been having these feeling since I first discovered porn. Aiskerim_potong watched his first porn at 17. I was 12 or 13, I think at the time. A bit too young, huh ?!!! I mean, me, a chubby lil’ boy stumbled upon my uncle’s stash of porn. I was intrigued. Not of the woman but the hunky man in the porn video. My first exposure only served to fuel my desire to watch more porn. I got my first computer when I was in Form Three. It was the beginning of the Internet age, if I’m not mistaken. With the Internet, I was amazed at just how many websites out there that contains porn. With a keyword, you get so many hits, porn is just clicks away. From then on, I started collecting porn be it straight, just so I have something to trade with my straight "as an arrow" friends AND to keep the illusion that I'm straight or otherwise. Obviously, my porn collection sometimes would be lost due to me not backing up my collection. It is only for the past few months that I've been backing up using an external hard drive. So, it begs the question. Does me being curiously gay as a result of being expose to such thing at such an early age or is it something that was internal ??

However, there are times when "curiosity does kills the cat", not literally, of course. There are times when I questioned whether my "there's no harm in my sexual experimentation" stance would give me problems later on. But, that is because I never really acted on my feelings. In the past, yes, there are a couple encounters which I brought upon myself. Seriously, only a COUPLE. Those encounters really put me off my experimentation for a while. Mind you, it was not, what you would call, "all the way", it was just heavy petting and oral sex (me, being the receiver). The way the event took place really made me feel, lack of a better word, used. Since, the guy was kinda into me, I just let it happened. It was certainly NOT an experience I want to remember. With that, yes, I am still a virgin. *shocks* *gasps*. Not really a virgin though, it's more of a semi-virgin (I saw this word being used in a blog but forgot whose blog. So, if the owner of that blog read this, please tell me !). A semi-virgin at 23, how pathetic is that ????!!! ;-p

Here's to my "virgin" blog and my "semi-virgin" self. May we have the courage to try things that everyone else has done before !! LOL !

To all muslims,

Weekend in Penang

Ça va pas la tête mentioned in his blog about his DVD purchase recently. And whaddaya know ?!!! My parents suggested that we go to Penang for the weekend (Oh yeah, I still live with my parents. Not necessarily a bad thing, you know !). While others go to Low Yat, Sungei Wang or Bukit Bintang to get their DVD fix, I like to get mine from Penang. In KL, the price of a DVD usually range from RM10 to RM15 and cost even more for DVD boxed sets (only an estimate since prices varied from place to place) for a single or a double layer disc. In Penang, I can get a single layer DVD for RM 6 to RM 8. I was made to understand that a double layer disc cost more because you get a clearer picture and better sound reproduction, though I did not have the chance to actually compare it with a single layer disc. Anyone care to enlighten me on this ?? I know NOT to expect too much since it's pirated and all. One more thing, please tell me if there's a place in KL that can equal the price I got in Penang. It'll definitely save me the hassle of buying DVDs ONLY when I have the chance to travel to Penang. Which is like what, only once or twice a year.

Here is my list of DVDs I bought:-

1. April Snow (Korean)
2. Innocent Steps (Korean)
3. Flightplan
4. Sin City
5. Must Love Dogs: I'm a sucker for romantic comedies plus I lurvvvve Diane Lane !
6. Brothers Grimm
7. The Constant Gardener
8. Creep
9. Serenity
10. 40-year-old Virgin
11. Red Eye
12. All About Love (Cantonese)
13. Win a Date With Tad Hamilton: Strictly goin' for the eye candy. Josh Duhamel(NSFW) is SO cute in this movie.
14. Hide and Seek
15. The HitchHiker's Guide to the Galaxy
16. Saw
17. Elizabethtown

Have I Got What It Takes ??

I guess when one starts a blog of his/her own, one is bound to question whether they have what it takes to write one. I took quite a long time to build up my courage to start a blog. For me, to air your opinions and thoughts for the world to read is dreadfully frightening. Not to mention, obviously you are gonna be judged on whatever it is that you write about. Add to that, my command of the English language is nowhere near the level of competency I want it to be. Unlike, Paul, (edited: whose command of the English language) is just flawless. Hence, to accomodate my inadequacy, I shall distract you with pics of cute guys. ;-p.

Here's one:

I'm SO into the face. What attract me first is the face. You would say what about the body ?!!. I think the body is secondary. So far, from what I've seen (which is honestly, not much) a guy with a cute face usually has a nice body. Hehe ! This guys is cute as hell. There's a nice contrast, don't cha think ?! Manly body, boyish face.

Some people have even said it can be quite a therapeutic experience. Others have said, it is a great way to meet new people. People who are going through the same things as you. I mean, people, total strangers, can really be supportive of you. On the other hand, some can be judgemental and mean-spirited. That goes to show, you can't please everyone. After all, I'm dealing and writing about what you would call a taboo subject in Malaysia. I can say that my attraction to cute guys and how I deal with it is my own business ( I don't know why but that Gwen Stefani's song come to mind). mumbling to self, ooooh ooh, this my shit, this my shit !. LOL !. But, somehow there ARE gonna be some self-righteous people who aversely gonna give their two cents worth. So, I wanna treat this blog as theraphy and as a tool to make/meet new friends/cute guys. I welcome any kind of constructive, destructive ?? criticisms. So, lay it all on me, baby !!!!

Reflections

Damn, how time flies !! Another year has gone by and I felt like I really haven't done anything at all. Life as a student is pretty much boring. Been through the usual stuff with assignments, exams, presentations and all. 2006 is gonna be the last year of my studies. Yep, I'm in the final year of my degree. You don't know the assortment of feelings I have been experiencing. Excitement, nervousness, anticipation and even scare. Such a scaredy cat, I am !! I ended 2005 with a minor bang, I guess. My birthday is in December so I looked forward to seeing how the year ends. My birthday wish/es has somewhat came true. It is totally materialistic. I got me a brand new PC, not a branded one though. It was one of those clone PC where you build it on your own and have peeps assembled it for you. I already have a laptop. But, it doesn’t have the requisite processing power I need to do my work with all those downloads for porn, music and movies. *wink*. I’m a multitasking kinda guy. I like to do my work while listening to music, opening multiple windows and I found out rather too late that my laptop couldn’t handle it. Guess what, it went out on me. I could not reboot the damn thing. There goes all "my porn collection", my downloaded music and movies. *Sigh*. I’ve tried re-installing the OS, the laptop shut down by itself half way through the process. Then, I couldn’t turn it on again. So, to sum it up, my laptop has two problems (i) power/batteries and (ii) hard disks. Do you guys have any ideas on how I can solve these problems before I sent it to the service center which I’m sure as hell gonna charge me an exorbitant amount I rather die than pay ?? LOL !!

On the personal front, whew...Here goes, I have been struggling to come to terms that I am attracted to cute guys. I know, I know, I do not want to be another Kitjar Sukjaidee although our predicaments are similar. I thought I can just deal with it, you know despite me, being a muslim. Ok, I am attracted to cute guys but I am also attracted to cute girls. Sometimes, I feel that I am more inclined to get to know guys through the Internet than girls. I mean, I messaged them telling I am interested to know them better to the point of telling how cute they are (not telling which personal website I’m using). Desperate, right ?!! Heck, I have even met some of the guys. Well, just one guy but it didn’t go too well. I just know it from the first time he laid his eyes on me. "He’s just not that into me". Corny, isn’t it that I’m using this line from an Oprah show I once watched. But, it described my situation dead on. I can see it from the way the guy talked. I just want a guy to be totally interested in getting to know me as I, him. Instead, I’m the one who took the extra effort to get the conversation going. For the New Year, I hope to handle this predicament of mine a lil bit better. I won’t brush off cute girls. If a cute guy comes my way, you’ll know which one I’m gonna be more interested in. Hehe !!

With that said, I just wanna wish you guys a “HAPPY NEW YEAR” albeit a day late.